I tahu everyone yang tengah lalui long distance relationship (LDR), sedang try your very best untuk bertahan, untuk tetap positif dan untuk terus kuat. Korang jugak mesti fikir how to overcome semua ni and of course dah cuba macam-macam tips. But akan ada juga satu saat tu yang mana korang akan rasa 'perasaan' tu.
Perasaan yang i tak tahu nak gambarkan macam mana. But it was there. I tulis ni waktu I tengah rasa satu perasaan yang I rasa berat sangat. We have been LDR for so long dan tak ada langsung kepastian bila boleh jumpa.
It's hurt. I tak tipu. Sakit sangat.
Akan ada masa kita tak sama, aktiviti kita tak sama, benda yang kita nak cakap tak sampai, salah faham, sunyi, sakit, rindu, risau and perasaan yang kita rasa it's better if we go our own way?
I tahu and faham those feelings. Longing for someone and the fact yang kita tak boleh buat apa-apa pun.
Kalau you tanya i, what should you do? I pun tak tahu. I know i pernah bagi tips semua pasal LDR ni but trust me, its temporary.
Tapi yang I belajar is trying to find the happiness in you. Kadang i rasa macam ni kan bila dia busy or i busy. I rasa kosong and waktu tu I sedar yang I letak the whole happiness in him and in our relationship. In fact, I should grow it on myself. Invest all those things and happiness on me.
LDR ajar i to be strong by myself, be happy bila dia ada and be happy bila dia tak ada.
LDR ajar i untuk kenal diri i, tahu apa yang i suka and tak suka, apa i nak and tak nak.
LDR ajar i yang sabar itu indah and jauh itu ada manisnya and sama-sama tunggu tu exciting sebenarnya.
I tahu tak mudah, kalau you tanya I apa i buat tiap kali rasa bad or lonely when my partner is not around...
I learn to do things yang i minat and buat apa i suka. I belajar menjahit, I pergi masak, minum coffee, makan aiskrim, watch movies, writing, text my friends, gossip a little bit, keluar drive, listen to music, cry if i need to, marah if i want to.
And bila dia datang nanti, I told him everything yang I buat. Cerita dekat dia how is my day. Mungkin kejap je la masa bersama. But it's worth it. I happy bila ada dia and i happy bila dia tak ada. Fair and square!
I let go of my feelings rather than simpan. Kalau rasa ada benda yang perlu dibincangkan, cakap dengan dia. Stop pressure dia untuk bagi you happy. You own your own satisfaction! Trust me! You really do!
LDR was not only about the relationship between you and your partner but also is about you. WHAT'S IN YOU.
What I can say? Find your own little happiness, jangan terlalu bergantung kepada partner you, tak kisah la dekat or jauh. Always know your worth. Always be there for yourself. BE HAPPY. Really happy.
Let's do this together guys :) You can do it!! I tahu kita boleh.
XOXO.
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